day 13

i am now 13 days into my 10km a day challenge. approx 3 marathons in distance. i’m a bit sore when i wake up, but feel fine once i get running. my body has acclimated. it has accepted that we’re in this for the long haul. i struggle with thinking i’m not doing enough all the time. it’s this constant thought that floats around in my head. some days it’s more muted, other times it yells at me. i won’t bore you with how busy my week was last week, but it definitely had moments of “is this healthy? is this sustainable?” i don’t really know. 

i’m unsure what i’m searching for sometimes. part of me hopes there’s this magical answer that will appear on the other side of the tunnel. the realist side of me knows that’s probably not true. i do feel good. i feel healthier. more focussed. the benefits are obvious. the doubts are still there. they never really go away i guess. maybe that’s what i’m after. a way to make peace with them. embrace that those feelings are part of me, and that’s okay.

-felix

on friday, i put out a song called dissociate with my friends vox rea. i love this record. the final drop reminds me of some my earlier, heavier work. fun. it’s the last single before my album drops on oct 17. some lyrical inspo for ya.

i also have 4 shows around the album release coming up. including a secret location show. tickets here.