the hard way

last week i ran about 50km. which is kind of insane cause i don’t really feel like i’ve been running particularly more than i usually do. but the numbers on my Garmin watch don’t lie. i guess it’s further proof that building things incrementally does actually work. who would have thought? 

i’ve been printing out a 12-week schedule and i do my best to stick to it. i have a dumb chicken-brain where if i look at the schedule, and it says RUN, i respond, “well we have to run, the schedule says so.” i suppose being self-employed is all about these small systems of accountability, otherwise i’d probably just be a complete waste of space and never leave my couch or make another song in my life.

sometimes i feel like my nature is to do things the hard way, and maybe that’s my way of making peace with the fact that i’m a slightttttt control freak. or perfectionist. or whatever you want to call it. it sort of feels like my achilles heel because i do feel like its a point of weakness amongst my strengths. i don’t know if i’ll ever truly make peace with that duality.

i think that’s why i’ve found so much love for running lately, the only way to get better is to log the miles, and that’s hard. and i think i like that? it’s weirdly simple and appealing and rewarding. 

making music is the same it’s just a bit harder to track the progress sometimes. unfortunately (or maybe fortunately) there’s no garmin watch for the studio.

anyway weird rant this week, i don’t know if any of this made any sense. but hey, this isn’t a book, it’s my thoughts that i need to get out.

-felix

ps: i’m really excited for the new south park this week. i felt like they came back when we needed them most.